Weightloss..... it's a dirty word in my book. A very very BAD word! One that I try to ignore but sadly just can't get out of my mind. I'm an overweight 23 year old woman with a family history of heart disease and COPD ---- not a good combination right? I know. And sadly I'm still having problems overcoming this task. I've tried to lose the weight twice in my life , the first time I lost 14lbs in two weeks and the second was about 23 in one month. Each time I lose my will, my strength and power to keep going. See I suffer from depression and each time I wound up having a breakdown of some sort. I'm not sure why and I do not have them on purpose. It's just like one day all the happiness and joy just leaves my body and boom i'm sitting on the couch with a pint of ice cream watching sad movies.
For starters I know what needs to be done and how to do it , I just don't have the will or want to. This is a very touchy topic for me because I know most of you are saying , "Your kids should be the want to." , "You should want to for yourself" etc. I'm not sure why I quit trying and just give up , sometimes it seems that it's always the easier way out. One day though I will overcome this and I will be proud and honored of completely finishing something this dramatic. Until then I'll just wait until i'm ready--- hopefully by then it won't be too late though.
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