Update! I'm Still Alive!!

                          Last time I posted, my pawpaw had recently passed away. Times were hard, really hard back then. And even now today things are still just as hard. Months ago we learned that our, "Nana". (Michael's grandmother) Has cancer. Now today we are faced with the tragedy of losing her. She is growing weaker and weaker every single day. In life there are people who you always turn to for, everything. Nana is one of those people in mine and Michael's life. To me it seems like everyone is leaving, everything that we turn to when we are lost or just need to help us solve a problem that we are having. For all sakes and purposes our Parents. Just think about it.
                When we turn eighteen our parents send us off to college, move us into our place and leave us in the world to fend for ourselves. But do they really leave us completely alone? I don't think so, who do you call when you don't know how much flour to use in a recipe. Or when money is tight and could use a few extra dollars. Who do you call when you have a newborn child who you are extremely petrified of that is crying non-stop. Your parents, and in mine and Michael's case our grand-parents. Both of mine raised me from the time I was two. Michaels Nana has always been the one he could turn to, the one he preferred to turn to while growing up.
               Now mine have both left and Michael's is only beginning. I feel like a toddler alone in a cold dark house calling for my mother and only hearing my echo's in reply. For when Nana leaves we will no longer be able to call to find out the amount of flour to use, or how to calm a screaming baby. It's sad, and down right terrifying. For we are not truly alone in the world until they have left us entirely.


Just alot to think about.


On a happier note:

Today has been rather boring, after lunch I was able to do my 5 laps while the kids were sleeping. But since it's been raining off and on all day we weren't really able to go out and play because the kids toys are all soaked.  So now we are playing in the house getting into everything and Jamming out to the Brew in Seattle Washington. Thanks to I heart Radio. Twilight obsession takes over! Lol but that's an entire other post!
Going to get dinner started.

Hopefully will write everyday, but I'm sure I've said that before.